I WANT TO GROW OLD WITH YOU 

Every-time I sit to write about Him
the words are just not right they seem.
     coz what in him i see
     is much much bigger than sea
He is smart and loves himself a lot.
has a dialog ready for every plot.
      His Pjs are his trade mark
      which make any moment bright which was dark.
His plans bigger than life and impresses all
implementing them everyone has a ball.
       he motivates and ethus everyone and make their vision wide
       but inside he is a chhotusa ,badmash child.
He is a hero for everyone
but from commitments he fears and run.
      He is a father when its night
      becomes a boss when the day shines bright
Becomes a lover in the time alone
and a colleague when talking over the phone
      He makes me smile and makes me cry.
      when he stares admiringly, I shy.
he is my energy booster
also my stress buster.
     he is a family and a friend too.
     though the time spent alone are very few.
He brings out  the best in me

I love him next to thy.
     He makes everything that's gone wrong
     with him i wish to sing all the love songs.
how do i express my love fully
coz everything i write looks dull and seems silly

LET GO......

Long are the hair

where lies the mist of darkness

through them i see

The face so bright

The eyes that of burning embers

and the that radiating glow

the smile that make anyone skip

a beat in the heart

when i see him, want to get merged

in the warmth

the hold so reaffirming

that life is short don't waste it so.

the touch that says

don't be afraid to fall. I 'm here to hold

Long and long,I long for him

His presence is so soothing ,I love that angelic being.

But angels don't stay in hands

they are just the divine lights

who tell life not about

running after things

its about realizing..

I too am a glowing beam.

I realize ,I understand the whole thing

and then again I get lost in the crowd

People run here and there

with them me too

b'coz I forget

The purpose of my life is not to hold on to but to let go.... 

Basking in the Grace

Was reading my own old post'The Journey so far'', and felt its been a long time since i have written anything....

this is the story of a looonnnggg wait which finally ended on 16th jan. since i had heard the chantings my soul yearned to chant them. its the Guru Pooja chantings. Ever since i heard Bhanu Di chanting these beautiful verses for the great gurus who have been who are and who would be, my lips wanted to move with the rhythm.

It is said that u do all the courses when your TIME comes. And i was finally applying for the GP course after 4-5 years of wait.The day i had registered for the Guru Pooja course i was on the top of the world. The very idea of going to finally sing the praises i was filled with all joys...My application was accepted and i got the invite for the course...BUT when the course was suppose to happen i had to be present in Ludhiana for a very big and important assignment and couldn't make it to the course....it was feeling so bad as if you are dying of thirst you get the glass filled with water but when you are about to take the sip the glass falls down and the water spills over....Thought had asked guruji that wanna do the course with the money i have earned not by borrowing from someone, and don't have enough yet,so guruji is making me wait..

But then the heart wanted it even more badly... had promised myself nothing else matters more than me learning the chanting..

And the day came when got call from ashram asking me whether i will be going to ashram for the course that was to happen in January.And i was again filled with joy just by the mere thought of doing it this time...and in just few hours my friend confirmed that she too will be attending it and the tickets were booked...:) But you know the heart always doubts the positive...i was just not making it public thinking dont know may be this time as well something will pop up at the last moment and wont be able to attend...as the winters were at its peek and and the trains were getting canceled and flights too...

But the day came when we were suppose to leave from Delhi to Bangalore,and couldn't just believe ,the temperature had suddenly high..no fog in the atmosphere and our train was on time...the journey was awesome ,had super fun.reached Bangalore, but there was still something going in my mind, ''doubting the positive''.we all got down to take out money for the donation of the course, from ATM..my sister was to fund me for this course and i had reminded her day before to transfer the money in my account which i didn't know whether she had, as had not talked to her since.I asked the cab driver to stop near an ATM and called my sister up to check whether she has deposited money in my account so that i can withdraw it... to my dismay she said she hadn't. I was in complete confused state as i knew i had not enough money in my account and was wondering how i was to pay the donation amount for the course ..I just Prayed to Guruji and when in the ATM. put my debit card punched my pin and the amount... I was waiting for  Not Enough BALANCE message to pop up on the screen. But to my surprise the money came out.. i couldn't believe it.. then i just remembered that I had asked Guruji that i will do the gurupuja course with the money I had earned.. and he made it happen... Its still a mystery from where the money came in my account.. but it happened and my faith strengthens with the passing time

This is the night
 The night so blue
Heart filled with hope and light
I sit with teary eyes remembering you
I close my eyes
And i see you
I open them wide
But there is only dew
I smile that you might be looking
Close my eyes feeling you 'll be hugging
But the smile just fade and lips start to drop
For just a glimpse of yours i hope
The days pass by
With them me too
I sit in the dark
Hoping for a beginning that's new
Longing  gets converted in tears
Flowing on my cheeks
Role down on my neck till i weep.....