MY NANU!!

he is a person i love to be with...his hands so beautiful...and those twinkling eyes.......he cracks lots of PJs just to make me laugh......
there were times when i was found more at my nanu's place then at my own house...
we would chat till late nights...he been a deputy collector, used to tell me all his stories..stories of different places and different people...and listening to all those i would go in a dreamland...we used to sleep on the Terese and watch stars...he used to tell me stories of the world so far...the stories of fairies and some stories of knights :)...he always made me the heroin of them all..
he taught me how to make tea...and he was the first one to encouraged to cook ...lol...was the first one to taste it too... :D
we would go for walks together, water the plants together....
he knows so many plants and their medicinal values, he would keep telling me...and when new flower bloomed i go running to him informing about the new arrival...
for anything that happens to me he has a solution...
he tease me by sadishiv's name....he was the Gardner...and i always say...i Will marry you...he is not my types...and he points towards aji...and we both laugh...
still couldn't believe....when he IS has become he WAS...
dint even get time to cry when i hear about it .......still those twinkling eyes flash before my eyes when he smiled at me....still feel his hand in my hand.....still can hear him hum some old song....still could smell the fragrance of his talc....still feel when i go nagpur he will be there to give me medicine when he would hear me cough or tell me some mudra if i complained about knee pain...
still feel we will be sleeping on the Terese looking at the stars , and i hug him tight as soon as i hear some scary voice....still feel he will wake me up in the midnight when its raining move the bedding in and set nets around my bed so that no mosquito can touch me......still feel he will be there asking me koni sardar awadla ka?....
still feel i will meet him........................

The solitude!!!

hmm...sitting here..so man thaughts are running through my head...
so many days of total chattering...giving intro talks..telling about UTsav ,PDS.....the feeling the deep urge that none be left from experiencing this beautiful knowledge that guruji is giving, didnt let me stop....wanted to go on and on....and somewhere....the longing for HIM increased......the rest of the people just vanished...only HE and I left.....any word i could hear was HIS....dint want to be a part of gossips or any other wordly talks...just wanted to be with HIM ...
as they say main aur meri tanhai aksar ye batein karte hai tum hote to kaisa hota :)
the countdown has begun for His arrival in body form...but there's no feverishness in me....Coz i feel that i have got him already...he is with me in me....
and suddenly i feel complete...my closed eyes become watery and few droplets roll down...
and soon could remember his every gesture , his every move...
when i open my eyes...the longing increase...fear i get lost in the crowd and get seperated from him...

Bavre Se Is Jahan Main Bavra Ek Saath Ho
Is Sayani Bheed Main Bas Haathon Mein Tera Haath Ho
Bavri Si Dhun Ho Koi, Bavra Ek Raag Ho
Bavri Si Dhun Ho Koi, Bavra Ek Raag Ho
Bavre Se Pair Chahen, Baavron Tarano Ke, Bavre Se Bol Pe Thirakna.
Bavra Mann, Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna

i find these lines so apt and so true for me....

hahahahahaha..i dont know y m posting this all but just writing this all ,i could feel his presence with me..... :)....could hear him, looking at me asking...kushh ho?